I had a negative moment yesterday. It’s amazing how your emotions can rollercoaster during the bad times, I actually came close to jacking it all in and walking away from my job.
This morning I tried taking a lighter approach, deliberately having a joke with the users who’ve rung me and taking the piss a bit with some colleagues who’ve transferred callers to me. I feel much better.
It feels like I’m engaged in a Cargo Cult, like I’ve erected a little model of happiness on the seashore of my soul and it’s beginning to attract the real thing. It brings into focus something I was reminded during my recent venture into Buddhist meditation at the local New Kadampa Buddhist centre, your suffering is largely in your mind.
It makes sense, you suffer mentally because in effect, you agree that you should be suffering mentally and then proceed to do youself over. You erect a little model of suffering in your mind and engage in your own bit of cargo cult.
Interesting thought, isn’t it?
Lewis says:
You make an excellent point - how many of us suffer our life simply because we think we should?
23 December 2006, 6:52 pm